What would a girl consider as a good candidate for future life partner?
Long ago, that is only one thing in my mind, which determined if he is the one. The shining moment; the actual moment of locked eyes, the overwhelming feeling of sudden connection. I got that in my teen era, with Alvin, Richard, AMK. But when I probe deeper, it's just a crush at first, later on with the little things that they do, then only you'd have more touching gestures/memories which resulted in more connection. And having the most connections is Alvin, which maybe explained why he won my heart outta all of them. But, with him, the 1st locked eyes moment wasn't at all mesmerising (as compared to AMK/Richard). I remembered the moment I realised I am in love with this man is on the day I forgot the date with him, with him outside the cinema with his bunch of pals, and as I walked pass with my gf, our eyes locked for a moment, and even we are at a distance, I could felt the sorrows radiated from his eyes....across the street, I felt a sudden pain in my heart, feeling his sorrowful gazes, feeling his pain, and my heart is raining too...for this connection alone...my heart had been stolen for years to come....until he passed away. But his influence in my life doesn't end there, as my next 2 choices directly linked to him/caused by similarities with him.
So, was it not the 1st moment of locked eyes? It's actually any moment...happening after some courtship/certain memories of togetherness/some touching things he did for you.
There are a big leap in my connection with Young on Sunday, 23rd Aug '10. To be exact, it's 22nd past midnight, so it's really 23rd. We chatted over the phone for long, and with lotsa confessions. It's sweet, as for someone so level-headed like him, to spend time until 4.30am talking bs with a girl he have not even meet for real, and the next day he supposed to wake up early for one outstation trip. Sometimes, this irrelevant things etched into a girl's mind deeply. Well, maybe not just any man, just maybe the one the girl's held near her heart. Meet many men who will stayed up until wee hours daily, just to wait for me to come online. Meet also few who will marry me just after 1-2 months of deep chatting and after meeting me for one date (for the past 4 mth, 3 out of 3). But of course, after 1st date, it's the end for me as there are no magical 1st shining moment. Young told me he felt pressured as I told him about wanna to see his eyes...before commit into starting a relationship. He told me, it's so abstract, as it's not something he could do/work on to make it work. Yeah...cuz it will just be based solely on my intuition if there are connection/sparks. I dunno what it's with him, he always seems to make me listen to his reasoning, see his points and usually it's a valid one. Maybe that means, his down to earth and constant objective analysing abilities might be what pico prawn needed to come down the earth and not always in her idealised/dreamy state.
I do have doubts with him, as in both astrology fiels (chinese /western), we are not compatible. But what do i really know, all my ex is somewhat compatible with me, but what does that lead? Still does not last until eternity...so what is the point of just comparing reading estimated by some wise people in the past? But when I probed deeper, as I don't understand why we are so incompatible but we seems so good to each another. Why we are drawn together? Even from the 1st chat, though not exactly flowery one, but it's so natural...so open. Then I found out yesterday, that me and him, though ruled by two incompatible planet, but we both have special 2-planets ruled birth date. U see, in each zodiac, mostly ruled by one planet. Say majority cancerian will be ruled only by moon. But there are about 30days in each zodiac groups, and certain date might be ruled by 2 planets, hence not every cancerian are alike. This if taken with other combination like the many house affecting everyone born in different date and hours, this create a unique personality to each person. Back to him, we both shared the same ruler planet, the SUN. His, the aquarian typical ruler and sun, while me typical cancerian moon and also the sun. What brought us together is the sun ruler. That is why we could connect/able to mingle at ease. I do have other doubt, as he might not be so in-tune with the sensitivity needed to protect my heart, my fragile, sensitive heart. I guess what he sees is the tough exterior of mine, a strong and independant woman. But what I am also deep inside, its a child who needed protection and love. How do I shed my tough exterior for him to see the softer side of me, so we won't waste each other time, say if he discover it late, then only realising I am not the serious mature woman he been looking for? I tried to tell him that i m also a childish one, but how can I let him see my inner self when I just meet him for the first time, when my guard could only be down after knowing someone for long. How do I forced myself to shed the barrier instantly for a stranger? This is tricky, forcing a crab to remove the shell, exposing its soft flesh...to a stranger.
Maybe I should not be bothered too much...as i am the moon and the sun, and who else could have this soft n sunny combination with a kindred heart and smart and fastidious brain :P....should just let everything take its own course. If he couldn't see through the "always serious &mature" mode as boring, then I think we could not clicked well for long term as well. Being me, myself...should just show him instead of what a great child-like outlook could do to revitalised life....injecting curiosity and silliness into ritualised & typical life. Showing him what he's missed not knowing the special moon-sun ruled special creature named pico prawn :)
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Merchong Young
God...the past few days I felt truly weird. I felt my attraction for him grew ten-fold while he is away to Merchong, and I haven't even meet him in person. Lets tell his story:
Just another nameless guy, until he send me his picture. My first thought was, ok..clean & decent looking, like guaiguai type and in the mail he sounded so well mannered. Afterward, we added each other in msn, but never ever chatted for like 1 month. I remembered seeing his online status countless time in between, but well, I never initiate any conversation. Besides, I a a bit occupied at those time. Up until one day, he suddenly say his infamous "hey" to me. And I remembered our first chat its about taiwan...well...being drag to this topic unexpectedly when he told me his mum is taiwanese. So, I proceed going on about what i like in taiwan, and it's fun to reminiscing! Actually, at that point, i am not sure if he remember who i was. i means has been a month or more since he first msg me, and he told me he got poor memory, so i am guessing here. Though most of the time, ppl remembered me...but I am just curious now as i am liking him now :P
The funny thing about liking someone is, you'd never think about the little things between you two is important up until the moment you realised you might like them in romantic sense of way. So, with the realization, you will try to re-call all the little thingy from the past, which supposed to add to your collections of thought and memories about this person. I knew from the first chat, he is pleased with the conversation that we'd. He always remind me how he likes to chat with me, and how good the session was. I dunno if he's trying to flatter me or he genuinely seldom have this kinda chat. Now i am wondering, what the hell that he talk to other gals about....I means I did not try to impress or anything with him, just talk about stuffs...whatever topic that being brought up either by him or me. For me, I just knew i felt good chatting with him as he sounded real, genuine, honest and truthful. Now, i truly interested to know what does other gals talk about with him....see...i am being possessive now..sigh. I am like..i wanna know what happen to him in the past and current. Wel, he kinda shared a bit on what he planned for his future. Actually, if i remembered clearly, he did shared many things with me. Little things that might not means much, but in a way...meant something. Let me list it down:
1.ask me how many children i planned to have
2.kinda suggested a plan for me like dating for 2 yrs then get married. the way and angled he blurted this out is like....or sound like...his plan with me. and at that instance, i felt warm and happy, not at all agitated. well, if most guys ever hinted on such thing with me, i am sure i would felt scared/wanna stay clear from them. but, with him I just felt ...difference.
3. hang out at his friend place near the place which he thought i stayed, but when i let him know my place is nearer to the other area, he is there hanging out with his friend very soon. Again, i felt warm and happy, not at all frightened. If others, i think i might felt alarmed in a bad way.
Maybe i think too much. Or I am inducing this thought cuz i 'd been missing him since he went outstation for works. We had been chatted like nearly 1 month, but i am at the point of misery now. How come casual chat, become like daily fixation. Like gotto chat with daily, sometimes on the phone, and now missing him badly.
Just another nameless guy, until he send me his picture. My first thought was, ok..clean & decent looking, like guaiguai type and in the mail he sounded so well mannered. Afterward, we added each other in msn, but never ever chatted for like 1 month. I remembered seeing his online status countless time in between, but well, I never initiate any conversation. Besides, I a a bit occupied at those time. Up until one day, he suddenly say his infamous "hey" to me. And I remembered our first chat its about taiwan...well...being drag to this topic unexpectedly when he told me his mum is taiwanese. So, I proceed going on about what i like in taiwan, and it's fun to reminiscing! Actually, at that point, i am not sure if he remember who i was. i means has been a month or more since he first msg me, and he told me he got poor memory, so i am guessing here. Though most of the time, ppl remembered me...but I am just curious now as i am liking him now :P
The funny thing about liking someone is, you'd never think about the little things between you two is important up until the moment you realised you might like them in romantic sense of way. So, with the realization, you will try to re-call all the little thingy from the past, which supposed to add to your collections of thought and memories about this person. I knew from the first chat, he is pleased with the conversation that we'd. He always remind me how he likes to chat with me, and how good the session was. I dunno if he's trying to flatter me or he genuinely seldom have this kinda chat. Now i am wondering, what the hell that he talk to other gals about....I means I did not try to impress or anything with him, just talk about stuffs...whatever topic that being brought up either by him or me. For me, I just knew i felt good chatting with him as he sounded real, genuine, honest and truthful. Now, i truly interested to know what does other gals talk about with him....see...i am being possessive now..sigh. I am like..i wanna know what happen to him in the past and current. Wel, he kinda shared a bit on what he planned for his future. Actually, if i remembered clearly, he did shared many things with me. Little things that might not means much, but in a way...meant something. Let me list it down:
1.ask me how many children i planned to have
2.kinda suggested a plan for me like dating for 2 yrs then get married. the way and angled he blurted this out is like....or sound like...his plan with me. and at that instance, i felt warm and happy, not at all agitated. well, if most guys ever hinted on such thing with me, i am sure i would felt scared/wanna stay clear from them. but, with him I just felt ...difference.
3. hang out at his friend place near the place which he thought i stayed, but when i let him know my place is nearer to the other area, he is there hanging out with his friend very soon. Again, i felt warm and happy, not at all frightened. If others, i think i might felt alarmed in a bad way.
Maybe i think too much. Or I am inducing this thought cuz i 'd been missing him since he went outstation for works. We had been chatted like nearly 1 month, but i am at the point of misery now. How come casual chat, become like daily fixation. Like gotto chat with daily, sometimes on the phone, and now missing him badly.
Monday, August 16, 2010
Near fatal incident on 13th Aug 2010 @2am
I'd a very hectic day, waken up at 6.30am and drove a car full of crews to Pekan, Pahang. An urgent order for a buka puasa dinner by our PM Najib for his fellow kampung. Anyhow, reached there before 10am despite the hectic morning jamming through Cheras & MRR2. After that, I thought i could blazed through the highway, but the rains started falling heavily along Genting-Temerloh. So my plan to reach there in 2 hrs failed miserably. Anyhow, the stretch from Kuantan to Pekan is much better than last year. The tiny 2 way road has been extended to 2 lanes per way, but its only half-way completed. Maybe by next year it will be done! One thing which pissed me off its the usage of expensive streetlight (aka PUTRAJAYA type). My colleague commented how many percentage of tourists will visit Pekan to justified for the amount spend on streetlight....well..I think we all knew very well that its not meant for tourist or promoting tourism.
Once reached site, works non stop, since not much works had been done yet by the initial crew group. I am surprised, but with aching tummy (well and mild diarhea) and hang on until ..well...until near 11pm. Luckily the pain stop right after tea time, so I only suffered for half a day. By night fall, everyone complained for tiredness, but i just need to to finish a bit more, and by 10 plus i am quite satisfied with the jobs completed, and make-sure the next day finishing touches will not jeopardise the event start-up time. With that arrangement done, I treated them to makan nearby as everyone including myself has growling tummy already. After that, we left separate ways; me to KL, them back to hotel/motel...yeah...pekan its that terrible in accommodation but well..with super expensive useless streetlight.
Along the way back, its fun! I sang happily, blazing through the silence and clear street, up until after Temerloh, rains started. tik tok tiktok....then heavier..sigh, gotto slow down, because parts fo the highway here is pitch black, no expensive nor cheap streetlight. Its still fine, up until near the sloppy-steep tight S-pin shaped road. I had already slow down to 60kmh, and i was negotiating the turn cautiously. But somehow, when i am following one right curved turn, midway, the car just turned left. But my steering its still on the right side. i am stunned for like few sec, and as the left turning almost brought the car to the edge of the hill, I just quickly turned the steering furiously to the right to counteract the effects. Whats follows is weirder, Even when i stop turning, the car then switch direction to the right now, then i just used back the tactic, keep counteracting the direction, for like 5-6 times, then the car only come to a stop. Bear in mind i already lifted my leg from both pedals, as break pad is also not doing anything to stop the car when it first go crazy. After the full stop, i realised i m still at a very dangerous road, as any upcoming car will not be able to spot me due to the near U-pin shape of most turns. I quickly press the accelerator lightly, to start moving. Truly slow, as i thought my car got problems, but as i go one further, i realised the car is functioning alright. Brake and everything working just fine. I also tried to reach both accelerator n break pad at the same time..well just to test if i could accidently step into both previously. But, no matter how i position my foot, i could not be possibly hitting them together. my foot is a size 5.5, so unless i do a horizontal press..which is unlikely, cuz my body will be turned uncomfortably to exert enough pressure to step on both. Suddenly, it just hit me that my sis birthday is just last week. And her birthday is close to ghost-month in chinese calender. I just realised that that night could overlap with ghost month already..well very likely. Thus, a slight fear seep into my heart...but i pretend nothing and keep dricing slowly, and chanting buddhism prayer. No more radio/cd/singing for me for the rest of the journey home. I am too excited with the adrenalin rushing in every corner of my vessels by then. Up until i reach Genting sempah @McD, then I am able to cool down, and drive a bit faster than the 40-60kmh...i could go 80kmh by then. Then by the time I reach MRR2, i could go 100-120 again. after I drop off some equipment at store, on the way back home, I could resume my normal speed and even started to sing again. I guess I am ok or the fear has subsided. Its such a terrible feeling being scared and alone, but when i reach home and prepare meal for Rocky, everything seems like back to normal...to my safety nest. And i am indeed felt blessful, as this is another closed call...my 2nd closed call. I guess if i have him at home at that time, i would have rush in and hug him. Just to have a strong shoulder to lean on, someone to stroke my hair and tell me everything is alright. And i would nuzzled into his warm chest feeling safer than i was then. Anyway, i felt safe now and that is all that matters. I could've called him and tell him, and i guess he would come to comfort this little kitten, but i am just too sensible to do such things. i could rush this, but i choose not to. As i keep reminding myself to go slow...and slower to enjoy the feeling..the longing...but what is i lost my life that night...then it would all be nothing. Well, maybe its fated when it really are. So, i just gotto trust if he is mine, then everything will just turn out the ways it should be...even not this life...there will be next. missing him already...what a feeling!
Once reached site, works non stop, since not much works had been done yet by the initial crew group. I am surprised, but with aching tummy (well and mild diarhea) and hang on until ..well...until near 11pm. Luckily the pain stop right after tea time, so I only suffered for half a day. By night fall, everyone complained for tiredness, but i just need to to finish a bit more, and by 10 plus i am quite satisfied with the jobs completed, and make-sure the next day finishing touches will not jeopardise the event start-up time. With that arrangement done, I treated them to makan nearby as everyone including myself has growling tummy already. After that, we left separate ways; me to KL, them back to hotel/motel...yeah...pekan its that terrible in accommodation but well..with super expensive useless streetlight.
Along the way back, its fun! I sang happily, blazing through the silence and clear street, up until after Temerloh, rains started. tik tok tiktok....then heavier..sigh, gotto slow down, because parts fo the highway here is pitch black, no expensive nor cheap streetlight. Its still fine, up until near the sloppy-steep tight S-pin shaped road. I had already slow down to 60kmh, and i was negotiating the turn cautiously. But somehow, when i am following one right curved turn, midway, the car just turned left. But my steering its still on the right side. i am stunned for like few sec, and as the left turning almost brought the car to the edge of the hill, I just quickly turned the steering furiously to the right to counteract the effects. Whats follows is weirder, Even when i stop turning, the car then switch direction to the right now, then i just used back the tactic, keep counteracting the direction, for like 5-6 times, then the car only come to a stop. Bear in mind i already lifted my leg from both pedals, as break pad is also not doing anything to stop the car when it first go crazy. After the full stop, i realised i m still at a very dangerous road, as any upcoming car will not be able to spot me due to the near U-pin shape of most turns. I quickly press the accelerator lightly, to start moving. Truly slow, as i thought my car got problems, but as i go one further, i realised the car is functioning alright. Brake and everything working just fine. I also tried to reach both accelerator n break pad at the same time..well just to test if i could accidently step into both previously. But, no matter how i position my foot, i could not be possibly hitting them together. my foot is a size 5.5, so unless i do a horizontal press..which is unlikely, cuz my body will be turned uncomfortably to exert enough pressure to step on both. Suddenly, it just hit me that my sis birthday is just last week. And her birthday is close to ghost-month in chinese calender. I just realised that that night could overlap with ghost month already..well very likely. Thus, a slight fear seep into my heart...but i pretend nothing and keep dricing slowly, and chanting buddhism prayer. No more radio/cd/singing for me for the rest of the journey home. I am too excited with the adrenalin rushing in every corner of my vessels by then. Up until i reach Genting sempah @McD, then I am able to cool down, and drive a bit faster than the 40-60kmh...i could go 80kmh by then. Then by the time I reach MRR2, i could go 100-120 again. after I drop off some equipment at store, on the way back home, I could resume my normal speed and even started to sing again. I guess I am ok or the fear has subsided. Its such a terrible feeling being scared and alone, but when i reach home and prepare meal for Rocky, everything seems like back to normal...to my safety nest. And i am indeed felt blessful, as this is another closed call...my 2nd closed call. I guess if i have him at home at that time, i would have rush in and hug him. Just to have a strong shoulder to lean on, someone to stroke my hair and tell me everything is alright. And i would nuzzled into his warm chest feeling safer than i was then. Anyway, i felt safe now and that is all that matters. I could've called him and tell him, and i guess he would come to comfort this little kitten, but i am just too sensible to do such things. i could rush this, but i choose not to. As i keep reminding myself to go slow...and slower to enjoy the feeling..the longing...but what is i lost my life that night...then it would all be nothing. Well, maybe its fated when it really are. So, i just gotto trust if he is mine, then everything will just turn out the ways it should be...even not this life...there will be next. missing him already...what a feeling!
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Simply Dating
Last week, I went to 2 dates on Saturday night. Firstly for a 8.30pm dinner at Empire Galleria Subang, while the 2nd one is for a midnight movie date at Jusco Cheras Selatan. I was reserving my slots for a date with a special someone, but too bad he wasn't free..or maybe wasn't even slightly interested. So, with a bruised self-esteem and with two invitations come in at the right time...then i just go on with it. I did not just accept any invitation but these two guys had been chatting with me online for a few months, always asking me out so for me its like finally re-paying their patience.
I wasn't at all excited, for well....my interest could only focus on one person at one time in romantic arena, so since my current focus is on that special someone..so anyone else will be like part of the crews....never the main cast. I know to be single and looking for a partner should not have this kind of mindset...should be meeting with everyone new with open heart...no pre-judgement or pre-set ideals. Maybe I should not even be dating at all, for I think he has seriously creeping into my veins..and already surrounding my perimeter of my heart. How do I know that? I am disappointed when he couldn't make it for our first coffee date, and missing him everyday, dreaming of him, digging into his past through facebook, his ex....and well...i found out he still cast her in his new mv production..so there..HOW COULD IT BE NOTHING? i means for both my feeling and he&his ex relationship. I know..I am certified having a crush on him...and he is definitely still or might hold a torch for her. Normally this doesn't matter to me but well..maybe my moon-ruled (well, i got 2 personal ruler planets...one is sun the other is moon...so i appear like very sunny but sometimes i am typical cancerian) self-doubt is creeping in as well. Picture this...she: younger than me 7-8 yrs, waify girly with soft voice type, into pageantry stuff by 20 yrs old and profession as flight attendant (so gear toward one type of girls, won't be overly opinionated, overly stubborn, overly independant, bad-tempered like myself). Why is the last point important? Well, the man involved here is a very opinionated, and a born director...so...I personally think she would be the best match as not much arguments..not much conflicts. The main problem might be the money issues....since she was those typical northern girl type...so I does wonder if the reason for their breakup is due to this reason...ok..that is me ..crossing the lines, imagining a storylines again. His hectic schedules does cross my mind but the fact that she would be on a plane most of the time, so this shouldnt be a problem...until yeah...a better prospect man come into the picture. Well, he was just a middle working class....and no matter how good his works came out...he could never be as rich as a businessman...not even like the corporate management level. So, I am basically speculating the cause of their break up again :P Anyway, it might be due to his flirting nature....the many talents he meet daily would be like a seduction..and sometimes..his guardrail failed. It happen....omg I am supposed to talk about my dates...ok back to the title stories.
First date is with a self-employed man. From Penang, but stay in KL for the past 10 yrs. Older than me like 9-10 years..but still in good condition. Look like 30s, tall and skinny, medium skin tones, super small eyes, a graduate from US but he was make into it, not born to be like one. Well, what i meant is ....you would see many chinese families throwing their childrens oversea just for the sake of having an oversea grad, but there are things which will not change no matter how long you put someone somewhere. Its not about money or outlook or social standing. Its about who one is...or destined to be. the easiest is the chinese proverb "even when one wear king's dragon robes, he still doesn't look like a king". I don't means to bad-mounted him, but he is always criticised everyone online...like why i used short form english during chatting online....why add malays into it, why add chinese words also, why so rojak? Stress on proper english usage, etc, but in real....his spoken english even funnier than my brother and his table manners is just terrible...well we are having at Italianis. Well, I insist on paying for the meal with the reason, well, i reach about 45min late! but the real reason is i do not want to see him ever again..and I do not like owing ppl thing, especially someone like him. He asked to walk me to my car, but i just say I know my way well....then he calls subsequent day, but i did not answer. Then this snaky person use other number to call my cell during work day...so i must answer right..as it could be new client, etc. Then he got the ball to asked me why i did not answer his call, i told him busy. then he say got one business contact to give me, as his client is looking to held a conference here, but i told him i am not interested as the margin of profit is not much from conference...to which he say his client is a public listed company...omg....at that point, I am truly pissed. why couldn't he un...i do not want anything associated with u! i think i am mean in this case, though he is truly not-pleasant person, but i think i shouldn't sound so cold on the phone...but i just wish and wish...that i never ever give him my number. so this is truly bad experience for me..for i can't even finish my carbonara...well...now i know what they means by unpleasant companion.
The 2nd movie date is much more better. This is a 28 years old guy, car salesman, into go-kart, sports and car drift. tall, fair, pleasant looking, funny but well...not my cup of tea :P but never the less, I had a great time. The movie we watched is predator, to which we missed the first 15mins because i m late ..again..yeah....from subang to cheras...got road block by police officer everywhere..well..near raya so...malaysian would know what that means! he tried to joked numerous time throughout the movie, then later we go to nearby stall for drinks. Chatted until everyone left 3 tables and the mosquito won't quit biting me. i laughed more genuiny with him, well...his jokes and topics much more interesting than the 1st one :P Anyhow, he sms and call me almost daily afterward, and i am pissed again (again, i only wants to be bother by someone i m interested in). So, i seldom reply, and did not answer his call....just told him i was busy. i feel like a bastard but....i truly don;t want to waste anyone time...theirs nor mine!
The search continue....for my soulmate!
I wasn't at all excited, for well....my interest could only focus on one person at one time in romantic arena, so since my current focus is on that special someone..so anyone else will be like part of the crews....never the main cast. I know to be single and looking for a partner should not have this kind of mindset...should be meeting with everyone new with open heart...no pre-judgement or pre-set ideals. Maybe I should not even be dating at all, for I think he has seriously creeping into my veins..and already surrounding my perimeter of my heart. How do I know that? I am disappointed when he couldn't make it for our first coffee date, and missing him everyday, dreaming of him, digging into his past through facebook, his ex....and well...i found out he still cast her in his new mv production..so there..HOW COULD IT BE NOTHING? i means for both my feeling and he&his ex relationship. I know..I am certified having a crush on him...and he is definitely still or might hold a torch for her. Normally this doesn't matter to me but well..maybe my moon-ruled (well, i got 2 personal ruler planets...one is sun the other is moon...so i appear like very sunny but sometimes i am typical cancerian) self-doubt is creeping in as well. Picture this...she: younger than me 7-8 yrs, waify girly with soft voice type, into pageantry stuff by 20 yrs old and profession as flight attendant (so gear toward one type of girls, won't be overly opinionated, overly stubborn, overly independant, bad-tempered like myself). Why is the last point important? Well, the man involved here is a very opinionated, and a born director...so...I personally think she would be the best match as not much arguments..not much conflicts. The main problem might be the money issues....since she was those typical northern girl type...so I does wonder if the reason for their breakup is due to this reason...ok..that is me ..crossing the lines, imagining a storylines again. His hectic schedules does cross my mind but the fact that she would be on a plane most of the time, so this shouldnt be a problem...until yeah...a better prospect man come into the picture. Well, he was just a middle working class....and no matter how good his works came out...he could never be as rich as a businessman...not even like the corporate management level. So, I am basically speculating the cause of their break up again :P Anyway, it might be due to his flirting nature....the many talents he meet daily would be like a seduction..and sometimes..his guardrail failed. It happen....omg I am supposed to talk about my dates...ok back to the title stories.
First date is with a self-employed man. From Penang, but stay in KL for the past 10 yrs. Older than me like 9-10 years..but still in good condition. Look like 30s, tall and skinny, medium skin tones, super small eyes, a graduate from US but he was make into it, not born to be like one. Well, what i meant is ....you would see many chinese families throwing their childrens oversea just for the sake of having an oversea grad, but there are things which will not change no matter how long you put someone somewhere. Its not about money or outlook or social standing. Its about who one is...or destined to be. the easiest is the chinese proverb "even when one wear king's dragon robes, he still doesn't look like a king". I don't means to bad-mounted him, but he is always criticised everyone online...like why i used short form english during chatting online....why add malays into it, why add chinese words also, why so rojak? Stress on proper english usage, etc, but in real....his spoken english even funnier than my brother and his table manners is just terrible...well we are having at Italianis. Well, I insist on paying for the meal with the reason, well, i reach about 45min late! but the real reason is i do not want to see him ever again..and I do not like owing ppl thing, especially someone like him. He asked to walk me to my car, but i just say I know my way well....then he calls subsequent day, but i did not answer. Then this snaky person use other number to call my cell during work day...so i must answer right..as it could be new client, etc. Then he got the ball to asked me why i did not answer his call, i told him busy. then he say got one business contact to give me, as his client is looking to held a conference here, but i told him i am not interested as the margin of profit is not much from conference...to which he say his client is a public listed company...omg....at that point, I am truly pissed. why couldn't he un...i do not want anything associated with u! i think i am mean in this case, though he is truly not-pleasant person, but i think i shouldn't sound so cold on the phone...but i just wish and wish...that i never ever give him my number. so this is truly bad experience for me..for i can't even finish my carbonara...well...now i know what they means by unpleasant companion.
The 2nd movie date is much more better. This is a 28 years old guy, car salesman, into go-kart, sports and car drift. tall, fair, pleasant looking, funny but well...not my cup of tea :P but never the less, I had a great time. The movie we watched is predator, to which we missed the first 15mins because i m late ..again..yeah....from subang to cheras...got road block by police officer everywhere..well..near raya so...malaysian would know what that means! he tried to joked numerous time throughout the movie, then later we go to nearby stall for drinks. Chatted until everyone left 3 tables and the mosquito won't quit biting me. i laughed more genuiny with him, well...his jokes and topics much more interesting than the 1st one :P Anyhow, he sms and call me almost daily afterward, and i am pissed again (again, i only wants to be bother by someone i m interested in). So, i seldom reply, and did not answer his call....just told him i was busy. i feel like a bastard but....i truly don;t want to waste anyone time...theirs nor mine!
The search continue....for my soulmate!
Sunday, June 20, 2010
BFF Birthday Dinner @ SevenAteNine (Ascott, KL)
The dinner is on 12th June, though her birthday is on 13th, but since I knew we would chat until pass midnight, so I suggested we go for dinner on sat night. The booking is on 8pm, but she kinda missed the way to my house (yeah, she is a direction idiot), so I gotto meet her somewhere along the highway, and the whole scenario delayed our arrival time at 9pm. Thankfully, our table is not cancelled due to World Cup fever. The occupancy is about only 20% in this infamous fine dining outlet. Both of us are worried as we are driving there, and already start planning to go somewhere else, but seems like football fever does have its good point :)
I ordered a Merlot, but since its out of stock..well, gotto try another variety, which is not to my liking. The 4-courses meal cost about RM350 for 2 pax, including my 1 glass of wine and Evian.
This smoked salmon is ok, but not something to shout about. Supposedly is 6 pcs, but I only remembered to take picture after I finished up half of the serving :P Well, its almost 9pm and I am very hungry, so there.
This dessert is probably the best entree for the night. The chocolate cake is simply heavenly, and its infused with lotsa tiny bits of nuts, probably almond. One scoop is vanilla ice cream, while the other one is cream. I only finished the ice cream and the whole cake slice, or maybe I am not particularly fond of cream except for mocha frappucino.
I ordered a Merlot, but since its out of stock..well, gotto try another variety, which is not to my liking. The 4-courses meal cost about RM350 for 2 pax, including my 1 glass of wine and Evian.
This smoked salmon is ok, but not something to shout about. Supposedly is 6 pcs, but I only remembered to take picture after I finished up half of the serving :P Well, its almost 9pm and I am very hungry, so there.
The second appetiser we had is fois gras, which is very..well, not something I'd expected. I always heard from people and from reviews that fois gras should be melting in your mouth, so I'd always imagined its like kobe beef I'd before. To my dismay, I don;t particularly like the texture, furthermore it got this strong ducky smell, which I don't like. But all my life, I could not take on certain strong smell food, such as lamb, some duck (some are truly smelly, but for those birdie which do not have much odor, duck meat is quite enjoyable), and now the new one in my list is fois gras. My bff told me the last one she'd somewhere else is much better. So, maybe 789's fois gras quality is low. Thus, maybe I should give it another try before throwing it into the forbidden list.
The steak as main entree for the night. My bff could not finished hers, but for me , well...don't you think this portion is just too small :) Honestly, this is not as good as the steak quality at Victoria's Station, but the atmosphere here is incomparable by Victoria's. However, I do not like open-air concept for fine dining purpose as I am sweating a bit even though the place is not crowded at all and I am wearing a very skimpy chiffon dress. Or maybe, our weather is simply too hot!
This dessert is probably the best entree for the night. The chocolate cake is simply heavenly, and its infused with lotsa tiny bits of nuts, probably almond. One scoop is vanilla ice cream, while the other one is cream. I only finished the ice cream and the whole cake slice, or maybe I am not particularly fond of cream except for mocha frappucino.
We stayed for about 5hrs here, chatting the night away while the band/music is getting louder and louder. My search for HG eatery continue......
The morning I waken up crying:19th June '10
I was working on site, with my younger brother and a few crews. Someone or something inform us that my dad has pass away. Naturally, we are trying to get home fast! To verify the source and to make sure. We are in a hi-tech building, which got many levels, and we all keep waiting for the lift to arrived. But for me, there are no ongoing lift. Say, at one instance i am supposed to go up, but all the lift is on the way down..so everyone around me naturally be gone one by one, while me wait on. But there are times when the going-up lift supposed to reach my floor, as indicated by the digital screen, it would automatically turn goin-down mode just on the floor before mine. Then after sometimes, suddenly a new info display nearby, indicating we or I should go down instead, then the lift situation are reversed. So, now all lift are going up.
The weird thing is, sometimes I am being transferred to Myanmar countryside, which has got no vehicles and no mode of communications, and a group of bad guys after after me, so I could just walk to my destination, which is home I guessed. But everything is so blurry and unclear...then suddenly I am driving a lorry with the crews going home finally. So, when I reach a restaurant near our home office, my GPS screen suddenly becomes a lcd with updated news from satellite. The recent news is my dad had pass away, with his picture displayed on the screen. Though a bit older than my dad now, but it's definitely him. And at the restaurant, it actually had become a big funeral parlour, and no doubt my dad's funeral is being held as I drove past. I rememebered being sad, and in disbelief.
Then, after I parked the lorry at store, then I have no idea why I started to unload the things I driven home. There are this machine/vehicle which I'd never seen before, not forklift then suddenly my dad is there giving me instructions on how to operate it smoothly. Then I am so happy as I ask him, if he would stay and teach me more. Then he said smiling, maybe just one more time. Then we kinda hugged, and I waken up, crying when I remembered how funny he was when saying maybe one more time. So like him, the gestures, the him in real life. And me crying on my bed, thinking how fragile life is...that my daddy really gonna to leave us anytime soon. That time is actually running out, of him, of me too. That my own life line is getting shorter and shorter.
I remembered last time, about 10 years ago, I dreamed about my mum pass away as well. It's really scary that this time my dad. Why am I dream such things? I knew it meant something, my dreams always do...but I don't like it when they put me in such vulnerable situation. Feeling the hurt and pain so real. Maybe one day i would dream of myself dying...someday!
The weird thing is, sometimes I am being transferred to Myanmar countryside, which has got no vehicles and no mode of communications, and a group of bad guys after after me, so I could just walk to my destination, which is home I guessed. But everything is so blurry and unclear...then suddenly I am driving a lorry with the crews going home finally. So, when I reach a restaurant near our home office, my GPS screen suddenly becomes a lcd with updated news from satellite. The recent news is my dad had pass away, with his picture displayed on the screen. Though a bit older than my dad now, but it's definitely him. And at the restaurant, it actually had become a big funeral parlour, and no doubt my dad's funeral is being held as I drove past. I rememebered being sad, and in disbelief.
Then, after I parked the lorry at store, then I have no idea why I started to unload the things I driven home. There are this machine/vehicle which I'd never seen before, not forklift then suddenly my dad is there giving me instructions on how to operate it smoothly. Then I am so happy as I ask him, if he would stay and teach me more. Then he said smiling, maybe just one more time. Then we kinda hugged, and I waken up, crying when I remembered how funny he was when saying maybe one more time. So like him, the gestures, the him in real life. And me crying on my bed, thinking how fragile life is...that my daddy really gonna to leave us anytime soon. That time is actually running out, of him, of me too. That my own life line is getting shorter and shorter.
I remembered last time, about 10 years ago, I dreamed about my mum pass away as well. It's really scary that this time my dad. Why am I dream such things? I knew it meant something, my dreams always do...but I don't like it when they put me in such vulnerable situation. Feeling the hurt and pain so real. Maybe one day i would dream of myself dying...someday!
Thursday, June 17, 2010
The day when I got cheap flowers from Cameron Highland
Early this month driven up to Cameron Highland for an expo job setup. So, via the normal Simpang Pulai, less steep but further away than Tapah.
On the way back the next day, I got tons of cheap flowers. Since its about 5pm already, the vendors kinda sell it cheap to clear the stocks. I also got a bunch for my bff, since its her birthday a few days later. Imagine, one waterlily stalk is only rm 2, compared to KL it's RM10. Rained non-stop all the way back, but I am still blazing through the darkened highway in 140kmh. Sort of tired, so kinda sleepy...just need to get home fast. I do stop by Simpang Pulai rest area to buy fruits, espcially the infamous Tambun pamelo :) Here are some flower arrangements once I reach home. Even though I am tired, but still gotto get it done before resting. They would wilted by tomorrow if I do not cut out their dried end and immerse the new area to water.
72roses for RM10. Good bargain hahahahhaha :)
The purplish flowers are free, well it's not so attractive type. However, this style do look cool.....hehehe
I also get this cheap potted plants for my garden.....RM7.50 per pot. I did not get any strawberry as the season is last months. Even though you could still buy but since it's not in season, its price almost doubled....so not for me since i am the infamous bargain hunter!
On the way back the next day, I got tons of cheap flowers. Since its about 5pm already, the vendors kinda sell it cheap to clear the stocks. I also got a bunch for my bff, since its her birthday a few days later. Imagine, one waterlily stalk is only rm 2, compared to KL it's RM10. Rained non-stop all the way back, but I am still blazing through the darkened highway in 140kmh. Sort of tired, so kinda sleepy...just need to get home fast. I do stop by Simpang Pulai rest area to buy fruits, espcially the infamous Tambun pamelo :) Here are some flower arrangements once I reach home. Even though I am tired, but still gotto get it done before resting. They would wilted by tomorrow if I do not cut out their dried end and immerse the new area to water.
72roses for RM10. Good bargain hahahahhaha :)
The purplish flowers are free, well it's not so attractive type. However, this style do look cool.....hehehe
I also get this cheap potted plants for my garden.....RM7.50 per pot. I did not get any strawberry as the season is last months. Even though you could still buy but since it's not in season, its price almost doubled....so not for me since i am the infamous bargain hunter!
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