Waterlily double blooms @ May'10

This is the first bloom from this pot, and I could not believe it when it's a double. Although its size is smaller than most of my other pots, but it's special as its location is not super sunny, and it has been lay dormant for few months since I re-pot them. It's just so tranquil looking at them :)




Fishes can't seems to stay inside this shallow pot, and thus without the natural fertiliser, that is the reason they stay dormant for so long. Anyway...it has flowered...and that is what cheer me up so much on that particular day.

Actually, when I was taking this picture, there are 1 little bees nuzzing inside the petals, but when i go nearer, it kinda flew away...plan to take its pictures initially, so not successful. Maybe next time, when there are double blooms again ...

Daidomon KL @unlimited wahyu beef buffet bbq

This is the 2nd time I am here. Slightly more than rm100 per pax but with unlimited wahyu (cutting rather thick so it could not melt in ur mouth), oysters and big scallops.

Another must order is the big prawn, but still oyster&scallops much more worthier to consume than prawn meat per gram.

The buffet start at 6pm-10pm, but they mostly will say their wahyu out of stock by 8.30pm, well..to make full used of the money spent, make sure u arrive by 6-6.30pm :)

Actually, before each buffet session, I would be really excited and plan so much to eat this and that, and thinking to myself, " I am truly hungry today. I am gonna finish so much foods that the owner will be furious at me..hahaha". Well, everytime I will fail due to the volume of my stomach..so I would do calculation in my head for every item I consumed. Mentally sum up the total value of each items I gulped down, until I am satisfied with my "smartness". Then only I felt I'd accomplish something, outsmart the owner. Actually, in a way, when we are thinking while eating and chatting with friends and family, we'd burn more calories, and thus able to eat more. However, some people just couldn't know their limit...seen some bad case in JOGOYA, where women/kids just vomitted in the washroom, with horrible sound. I wonder if guys do have miscalculation too..i means to eat until you's puke..that is plain foolish. Imagine paying to get tortured liek that...definitely not in my list. So, what I do is smart and practical...still wish for a bigger volume stomach though :P

Others foods served there are the standard type, sashimi, sushi, chinese food, malaysian food, and ice-cream. Though this time, they no longer have green tea, just normal and plain vanilla/mango,etc. Ohh..when it's time to leave, you'd be surprised that ur clothing still smell like food (despite their claims that their bbq technology could absorbs the bbq smokes). Though I don't smell like hot dog meat, but I could still smell something..maybe it's my dog's nose sensitivities again!

An except of a letter to a friend- how long to date before marriage

About relationship, I don't think going steady for 5-10 yrs a problem...as long as both your  steps are the same. Say, both of you running up Mount Everest, but once you reach the top, u look around, and found out your partner already stop halfway, enjoying ice cream. U call out to him, but he couldn't hear cuz the gap is too wide, too far. Sometimes, you need time to tell if two person are really right for each other in term of physical/emotional/visions/personality. Lotsa ppl get marry soon, jx to be so unhappy later on and got stuck with responsibility and for children sake...stay on, endure on...living in bitterness. The survivor will be strong enough to get a divorce, but at what expense? Children will becomes the victim anyhow. well, that is me babbling again ...have a nice day

Someone asked me "I can' t believe u r still single"

When i got this kinda question, which is frequent, my heart is screaming such thoughts:

Just came out from a long relationship 1 yrs ago. Planning wedding stage, but suddenly, after 8 yrs together, just felt i lost the feeling..well that is what rule me in life. i dun settle just for the sake of settling, u c. been hard to come out and hurt someone so dear to you, thank god he is still willing to be my friend..well i guess cuz i am always true to him, in a way, blessing come to me naturally.




i am very capable, intelligent, kind hearted, funny and witty person. some might say i m perfectionist, but i guess i m just too real to my feeling, too in touch with my spiritual realm. To find caring man, loaded man in malaysia is not at all hard..but to find your true love, someone who could make my heart skips beat...that is something rare. Maybe u think i deserve being alone, but i aint afraid of solitude...i just afraid i could not meet HIM before my last breath on planet earth
 
Well, how i answer the perosn who ask me...smile ...and smile :)

GOT HIT BY CUPID

Oh my...what have I ever did to deserve this. A few days ago, I was happy and fine...but then since yesterday, the heartbeat get stronger (almost non-stop, very similar to the feeling i felt back in college when i drank lotsa coffee to stay awake and cramps everything into my memory for each semester's final exam), couldn't sleep, even though so luckily fall asleep but would be awaken within 2-3 hrs later, silly grins all days, most time smiles for no reason (must be nut case). Even now, in my most terrible state (slept for 2 hrs only), my mind could only think of him..and a mere thought of him send a smile into my tired face...holy shit....i m truly in deep shit (forgive my language, but this is truly how fucked up i think i am). In my 30s of life on planet earth, why must be now...when i m old/laden with responsibilities. Why couldn't let me felt this in my teen, while i still have plenty of energy to face this kinda tortures. my eyes are super heavy now, redden, but still...his haunting face occupying my mind...his laughters follows me everywhere...oh my..someone save me please 

Digging Gwyneth Herbert music

After watching "leap year" few days ago, I am stuck at this new version of Neil Young's Only Love can break your heart by this lady Herbert. Couldn't find any of her mp3 from net, but you could listen to her others works in her website....and I also fall for this Somedays i Forget. Omg...i am addicted to these 2 songs...but couldn't find download anywhere.....but they were from diffeent cd collection. Even I willing to buy, would have to buy 2 ...each with 1 song. This is really suck!

Pain in my heart

Since last night, my heart felt so heavy and at times, painful. How weird that i am jovial and carefree up until he told me his day, and i hated myself for feeling so happy before i got the news from him. That for the past 12 hrs before, he was in pain, while i am still working happily, tending my works in office, chatting with client to finalised stuff, going yoga for 2 hrs, smiling at fellow practitioner at studio, watching a dvd while having my delicious dinner. hated myself for being so un-intrinsic, why every astrologer stated i am pyschic? I am definitely not! i jx knew he is distant while chatting at 5pm...i thought he is jx bz doing his works...but at that time, he already in pain, but I didn't know...how could i not knowing? How could one be any insensitive as me? Meanwhile still askin him about not telling the truth on his birthdate, his sun sign....sayin sagitt. might hurt cancerian with his bluntness...but it's me who is inconsiderate by saying such things when he is in such stressful and at lost.

Even though today, I m very bz and kinda lucky for gettign a last minutes order....well..things has been slow for ppl in our field (but somehow, I am jx lucky as got jobs line up for whole month already), but I am not happy, not inside. Even as I am smiling to my client, my heart is raining....the lightning inside just feel like sharp pain here and there, every now and then. Somehow, i wondered if I am a jinx....before all these while he is ok....everything is ok for him....he could hang on just fine, always positive..always stay happy. I wondered if that sunday chatting at wee hours kinda put out the worst in him for lacking sleep. So, he burst...well...an agitated person sometimes....got their emotion intensified. So, i felt so bad....i felt like its my fault. Maybe it's just me, everytimes things goes bad...or just anything not turning out right, I would blame myself..I knew I could not think this way, but my heart just felt so bad whenever ppl around me feel sad.

I am writing a very long mail to him before he broke the news, something about my past, and what exactly shape my outlook on love matter. But i decided not to send him, for there are lotsa things bothering him now, and I shouldn't be one. I really dunno how I could care so much, felt like my heart is breaking, like everything else is meaningless...when he is sad. Dear God, I never asked you much for the past 10yrs..but could you maybe help this little prawny...please mend his heart, take away his sorrows...and show him a lighted pathway to be happy again.