Has been almost a year to the anniversary of our 1st fateful meet on 31st Aug 2010. I been too busy to update this blog as my time is always not enough for another outing, another vacation, and the never ending fuss of wedding preparation! Its right, less than a year to our 1st meet, we are planning a wedding already. In fact, within months (if not weeks) he already framed out the words. Still remember that during the 1st two weeks, he was convinced that I am the one!
I know..i know....it all seems very rush, very irrational...but to two very matured in thinking/thought (both reaching the BIG 30), independant individual and with countless number of admirers and past relationship, the timing couldn't be more perfect...as if its almost fated! We both wasn't religious people, especially him; been brought up to "trust yourself" mentality than to lay everything to chance/god/luck. But to have him, acknowledging and even admitting that this is fate...we are fated, its like been lightning-striked! I do not believe in fate blindly, but I truly trust life is prearranged for all of us (but is alterable/adjusted based on ur karma/deeds), but to have him being delivered to me right on the moment of despair....its just too much/too perfect to be true.
Imagine you are at the alter to be sacrificed, with a knife at the base of your fragile neckline.....and right before the slayer gonna make his full swing....there he is...my knight in shining armour..beautiful/immaculately perfect beings....scooped me off to a neverland. See, how narrowly i missed the death penalty....and before I even have time to digest the new situation nor feel lucky that I'd been saved, I looked up to the face that scooped you up...with an unblinkable eyes...you stared and stared until the sunlight beamed on your iris, almost blinding you. But you do not want to let go of the new found sight....and you fought to keep your vision clear, to have him in full view. This is almost to the point of star struck, to be in between fantasy and reality. At least this is how i felt sometimes...and still feeling it still even after almost a year of being together. Well, we already lived-in together in less than a week after we first met, yeah this is how inseparatable we are. He still could not believe he could let go of his independence so easily, being defected without being aware of.
Sometimes, i do wondered if he will be like rainbow...so prefect, so rare.....that will just poofs away without you even realising it. This is one reason that sometimes I feel insecure to fall asleep at night. There are times, that I couldn't sleep well when he is beside me, as i will just stared at his sleeping face...wanting to hold on to the sight, before he poofs away like the rainbow. That is also why i think i sleep better when he went outstation. Its like having a big box of treasures with you, which you felt not at ease as you will need to protect it from being robbed from you. Good that I could rest better nowadays....as maybe the feeling of belonging felt stronger...thus the trust/security that he is not a temporary rainbow started to materialised. Just like how you knew your adult dog will always run back to you, while the newly purchased puppy won't...a bad metaphor but nevertheless a good one to describe my feeling.
My brother almost coming out from the airport so i would make a stop here. I will try to sneak in more time to update this blog, to ink-ing our love story...which i have a strong feeling that will be my ultimate great love!
Monday, August 1, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Old Lotus Root incident@9thApr2011
Was supposed to be a very happy day for me, as my bf supposed to come back from
outstation trip for the weekend. Everything is good for the day, from picking him at his office to have the ever tasty chiu zhau porridge at Cheras. With each of us having one whole big bowl of salted vegetable, well..even the server stare at us for ordering 2 plates (they just never know how much we both love salted thing). After the hearty meal, we proceed to leisure mall for window shopping. I got some ribbon for my craft thing, just started a mini decoration for
home recently (spear-headed by macy's recent sale). After that we walk abit and later go home. Get my clothing out form the dryer, and we rest a bit until dinner time. After a quick reservation for kampachi buffet@ equatorial bangi, we started preparing and have a satifying meal which ended up feeling tortured at the end. Weird as I don't feel as satisfy....but my tummy is super super bloated. We both agreed that the japanese buffet at Palace of Golden horses are
much more better..but I always been told that Kampachi is amongst the best...well..not anymore maybe.
We left early...about 9pm as we both are extremely....Enough!! I don't feel like I eaten a lots but my stomach space just not cooperating with me this time. What a let down. In between, Young went into toilet once for the longest time. Initially i thought he is having stomach ache again......but later I found out he is not (claimed that waiting for cleaning session which is so unlikely...as he is not those who will wait around....just my guess here as only later I found out this piece of info). How??? After we come back from buffet dinner, we are so bloated and tired that we fell asleep very soon. Of course being me, i can't sleep properly before I taken my bath. So, waking up and feed Rocky, then proceed taking my relaxing shower. Meanwhile, he is sleeping soundly in another room. When going around in the room searching for my water bottle, his hp on the table lighted, indicating a call. I am so surprise he left his hp in ON mode,
and being noisy, I pick it up, but too bad its not a call...its a sms. To my surprise, it's from a gal name Celine Chiang..messaging him something like....miss u...good nite...have a sweet dream! WTF????? Wasn't those supposed to be my words?????
Of course being a good detective, I should check out what prompted that kinda reply from our ms Celine right? So, I search his outgoin sms, but there are nothing...I guess he set to not save on any msg he sent (not even the msg he sent me). Then I search his outgoing call, just a short list of few ppl, but his incoming call got gal names i never heard of...like lai kai ling, and Ax
something. And both of them call him yesterday! And he never mention about it to me! Well, we always share gossip info for fun....say some ex call him/which gal interested in him/etc. Not satisfy, then I go back to his msg, and as i scroll down...there are another msg from a gal name michelle, who inform him she is staying in jb now and her facebook account. What does this raises alarm??? Because my bf outstation venue is nearby Segamat, JB! I checked her facebook,
and ok..I admit her outlook a bit off....but still...why so many pointers here. I means .....I feel pissed now....and he is sleeping so soundly there. And he got all the time to spill these new info to me during lunch/dinner and the many small intimate talk just now....arggghh!! Should I wait for him to spill?? or ask him...confront him?I knew he will say....U r not supposed to go through my
thing....yeah right......I am doing that all along, and that is why i felt like loser now......like...such a idiot! I know, this Celine could be some ex.....but ....don't the timing of few gals at once call/msg is a bit weird?? And he like to pissed me off all the time, and telling me ppl still after him just gonna boost his ego, and piss me...so the question is why don't he tell me about all these calls and msg??? Even though I knew some guy I'd dinner once do sometimes just sms me outta the blue, asking for meet and asking me how am i,etc...but just feel not right this time. Why would he always put his phone in silent mode.....like most of the time. Life is not always cherry blossom i guess..sigh!
outstation trip for the weekend. Everything is good for the day, from picking him at his office to have the ever tasty chiu zhau porridge at Cheras. With each of us having one whole big bowl of salted vegetable, well..even the server stare at us for ordering 2 plates (they just never know how much we both love salted thing). After the hearty meal, we proceed to leisure mall for window shopping. I got some ribbon for my craft thing, just started a mini decoration for
home recently (spear-headed by macy's recent sale). After that we walk abit and later go home. Get my clothing out form the dryer, and we rest a bit until dinner time. After a quick reservation for kampachi buffet@ equatorial bangi, we started preparing and have a satifying meal which ended up feeling tortured at the end. Weird as I don't feel as satisfy....but my tummy is super super bloated. We both agreed that the japanese buffet at Palace of Golden horses are
much more better..but I always been told that Kampachi is amongst the best...well..not anymore maybe.
We left early...about 9pm as we both are extremely....Enough!! I don't feel like I eaten a lots but my stomach space just not cooperating with me this time. What a let down. In between, Young went into toilet once for the longest time. Initially i thought he is having stomach ache again......but later I found out he is not (claimed that waiting for cleaning session which is so unlikely...as he is not those who will wait around....just my guess here as only later I found out this piece of info). How??? After we come back from buffet dinner, we are so bloated and tired that we fell asleep very soon. Of course being me, i can't sleep properly before I taken my bath. So, waking up and feed Rocky, then proceed taking my relaxing shower. Meanwhile, he is sleeping soundly in another room. When going around in the room searching for my water bottle, his hp on the table lighted, indicating a call. I am so surprise he left his hp in ON mode,
and being noisy, I pick it up, but too bad its not a call...its a sms. To my surprise, it's from a gal name Celine Chiang..messaging him something like....miss u...good nite...have a sweet dream! WTF????? Wasn't those supposed to be my words?????
Of course being a good detective, I should check out what prompted that kinda reply from our ms Celine right? So, I search his outgoin sms, but there are nothing...I guess he set to not save on any msg he sent (not even the msg he sent me). Then I search his outgoing call, just a short list of few ppl, but his incoming call got gal names i never heard of...like lai kai ling, and Ax
something. And both of them call him yesterday! And he never mention about it to me! Well, we always share gossip info for fun....say some ex call him/which gal interested in him/etc. Not satisfy, then I go back to his msg, and as i scroll down...there are another msg from a gal name michelle, who inform him she is staying in jb now and her facebook account. What does this raises alarm??? Because my bf outstation venue is nearby Segamat, JB! I checked her facebook,
and ok..I admit her outlook a bit off....but still...why so many pointers here. I means .....I feel pissed now....and he is sleeping so soundly there. And he got all the time to spill these new info to me during lunch/dinner and the many small intimate talk just now....arggghh!! Should I wait for him to spill?? or ask him...confront him?I knew he will say....U r not supposed to go through my
thing....yeah right......I am doing that all along, and that is why i felt like loser now......like...such a idiot! I know, this Celine could be some ex.....but ....don't the timing of few gals at once call/msg is a bit weird?? And he like to pissed me off all the time, and telling me ppl still after him just gonna boost his ego, and piss me...so the question is why don't he tell me about all these calls and msg??? Even though I knew some guy I'd dinner once do sometimes just sms me outta the blue, asking for meet and asking me how am i,etc...but just feel not right this time. Why would he always put his phone in silent mode.....like most of the time. Life is not always cherry blossom i guess..sigh!
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