Mizi Shabu shabu @Bdr Puteri, Puchong

Been here for the 2nd time few weeks ago for my sis birthday, well an early bash anyway. The good thing about this personalised pot is, one don;t have to wait for everyone to arrive :) Well, my sis late like 30min, but we already got in and start eating happily!

This time, they are more generous with the thinly sliced pork serving. I remember back then, we had to basically waited for 30mins for them to bring in one new tray. Maybe most patrons that night wasn't at all too keen on the pork meat, so me and my bro just having great fun grabbing all the plates from the tray. Look at the simmering pot, less than 30mins, the soup on my pot tasted thick and flavourful enough. The only complaint is, for this buffer outlet, they don't serve the great "sha char" sauce. This sauce is kinda brownish, and imported from Taiwan..and only serve in their ala-carte branch, also located in Bandar Puteri.

The main differences between the two outlet is, buffet but limited choice and without the special sauce for about RM29, while the other more quality food with special sauce but cost minimum RM22 per pax for set menu and cheapest drink, without any add-on items. I loves their beef set, but additonal plate of beef slices is about rm8. Since the pork slices also tastes great, and unlimited....so my next visit still would be the buffet :P

If anyone having chance to go Taiwan, do visit the many hot-pot buffet shop. Much more cheaper than this one, plus they got ice cream and desserts. Oh my...I truly missed Taiwan. To choose, I would rather go Taiwan than Hong Kong, even though the public transpot in HK is much more sophisticated and well...systematic. Well...here i am, my mind drifted to him again at the mere mentioning of Taiwan. In my mind right now, I am imagining browsing the street in Taiwan with him...must be outta my mind. Sharon asked me to go Taiwan with her end of this month, well she got a great deal....about rm1300 with hotel, but my heart keep on saying..hang on...it will be more fun if you go with him instead. Duh! Like he is ever planning to go with you? Get a life! I think in his master plan, for the coming 2 years is to complete his CPA, and then moved on to another company to get experiences. I never heard him talk about vacationing and long break...so this is a guy who is much focused on his career path and not...leisurely wasting his time walking on small and winding Taiwan's street! So, this coming Matta please go get a deal to go have fun...with gf who willing to spend time with you, not another guy who only prioritised his achievement over you.

Is there love at first sight?

What would a girl consider as a good candidate for future life partner?

Long ago, that is only one thing in my mind, which determined if he is the one. The shining moment; the actual moment of locked eyes, the overwhelming feeling of sudden connection. I got that in my teen era, with Alvin, Richard, AMK. But when I probe deeper, it's just a crush at first, later on with the little things that they do, then only you'd have more touching gestures/memories which resulted in more connection. And having the most connections is Alvin, which maybe explained why he won my heart outta all of them. But, with him, the 1st locked eyes moment wasn't at all mesmerising (as compared to AMK/Richard). I remembered the moment I realised I am in love with this man is on the day I forgot the date with him, with him outside the cinema with his bunch of pals, and as I walked pass with my gf, our eyes locked for a moment, and even we are at a distance, I could felt the sorrows radiated from his eyes....across the street, I felt a sudden pain in my heart, feeling his sorrowful gazes, feeling his pain, and my heart is raining too...for this connection alone...my heart had been stolen for years to come....until he passed away. But his influence in my life doesn't end there, as my next 2 choices directly linked to him/caused by similarities with him.

So, was it not the 1st moment of locked eyes? It's actually any moment...happening after some courtship/certain memories of togetherness/some touching things he did for you.

There are a big leap in my connection with Young on Sunday, 23rd Aug '10. To be exact, it's 22nd past midnight, so it's really 23rd. We chatted over the phone for long, and with lotsa confessions. It's sweet, as for someone so level-headed like him, to spend time until 4.30am talking bs with a girl he have not even meet for real, and the next day he supposed to wake up early for one outstation trip. Sometimes, this irrelevant things etched into a girl's mind deeply. Well, maybe not just any man, just maybe the one the girl's held near her heart. Meet many men who will stayed up until wee hours daily, just to wait for me to come online. Meet also few who will marry me just after 1-2 months of deep chatting and after meeting me for one date (for the past 4 mth, 3 out of 3). But of course, after 1st date, it's the end for me as there are no magical 1st shining moment. Young told me he felt pressured as I told him about wanna to see his eyes...before commit into starting a relationship. He told me, it's so abstract, as it's not something he could do/work on to make it work. Yeah...cuz it will just be based solely on my intuition if there are connection/sparks. I dunno what it's with him, he always seems to make me listen to his reasoning, see his points and usually it's a valid one. Maybe that means, his down to earth and constant objective analysing abilities might be what pico prawn needed to come down the earth and not always in her idealised/dreamy state.



I do have doubts with him, as in both astrology fiels (chinese /western), we are not compatible. But what do i really know, all my ex is somewhat compatible with me, but what does that lead? Still does not last until eternity...so what is the point of just comparing reading estimated by some wise people in the past? But when I probed deeper, as I don't understand why we are so incompatible but we seems so good to each another. Why we are drawn together? Even from the 1st chat, though not exactly flowery one, but it's so natural...so open. Then I found out yesterday, that me and him, though ruled by two incompatible planet, but we both have special 2-planets ruled birth date. U see, in each zodiac, mostly ruled by one planet. Say majority cancerian will be ruled only by moon. But there are about 30days in each zodiac groups, and certain date might be ruled by 2 planets, hence not every cancerian are alike. This if taken with other combination like the many house affecting everyone born in different date and hours, this create a unique personality to each person. Back to him, we both shared the same ruler planet, the SUN. His, the aquarian typical ruler and sun, while me typical cancerian moon and also the sun. What brought us together is the sun ruler. That is why we could connect/able to mingle at ease. I do have other doubt, as he might not be so in-tune with the sensitivity needed to protect my heart, my fragile, sensitive heart. I guess what he sees is the tough exterior of mine, a strong and independant woman. But what I am also deep inside, its a child who needed protection and love. How do I shed my tough exterior for him to see the softer side of me, so we won't waste each other time, say if he discover it late, then only realising I am not the serious mature woman he been looking for? I tried to tell him that i m also a childish one, but how can I let him see my inner self when I just meet him for the first time, when my guard could only be down after knowing someone for long. How do I forced myself to shed the barrier instantly for a stranger? This is tricky, forcing a crab to remove the shell, exposing its soft flesh...to a stranger.

Maybe I should not be bothered too much...as i am the moon and the sun, and who else could have this soft n sunny combination with a kindred heart and smart and fastidious brain :P....should just let everything take its own course. If he couldn't see through the "always serious &mature" mode as boring, then I think we could not clicked well for long term as well. Being me, myself...should just show him instead of what a great child-like outlook could do to revitalised life....injecting curiosity and silliness into ritualised & typical life. Showing him what he's missed not knowing the special moon-sun ruled special creature named pico prawn :)

Merchong Young

God...the past few days I felt truly weird. I felt my attraction for him grew ten-fold while he is away to Merchong, and I haven't even meet him in person. Lets tell his story:

Just another nameless guy, until he send me his picture. My first thought was, ok..clean & decent looking, like guaiguai type and in the mail he sounded so well mannered. Afterward, we added each other in msn, but never ever chatted for like 1 month. I remembered seeing his online status countless time in between, but well, I never initiate any conversation. Besides, I a a bit occupied at those time. Up until one day, he suddenly say his infamous "hey" to me. And I remembered our first chat its about taiwan...well...being drag to this topic unexpectedly when he told me his mum is taiwanese. So, I proceed going on about what i like in taiwan, and it's fun to reminiscing! Actually, at that point, i am not sure if he remember who i was. i means has been a month or more since he first msg me, and he told me he got poor memory, so i am guessing here. Though most of the time, ppl remembered me...but I am just curious now as i am liking him now :P

The funny thing about liking someone is, you'd never think about the little things between you two is important up until the moment you realised you might like them in romantic sense of way. So, with the realization, you will try to re-call all the little thingy from the past, which supposed to add to your collections of thought and memories about this person. I knew from the first chat, he is pleased with the conversation that we'd. He always remind me how he likes to chat with me, and how good the session was. I dunno if he's trying to flatter me or he genuinely seldom have this kinda chat. Now i am wondering, what the hell that he talk to other gals about....I means I did not try to impress or anything with him, just talk about stuffs...whatever topic that being brought up either by him or me. For me, I just knew i felt good chatting with him as he sounded real, genuine, honest and truthful. Now, i truly interested to know what does other gals talk about with him....see...i am being possessive now..sigh. I am like..i wanna know what happen to him in the past and current. Wel, he kinda shared a bit on what he planned for his future. Actually, if i remembered clearly, he did shared many things with me. Little things that might not means much, but in a way...meant something. Let me list it down:
1.ask me how many children i planned to have
2.kinda suggested a plan for me like dating for 2 yrs then get married. the way and angled he blurted this out is like....or sound like...his plan with me. and at that instance, i felt warm and happy, not at all agitated. well, if most guys ever hinted on such thing with me, i am sure i would felt scared/wanna stay clear from them. but, with him I just felt ...difference.
3. hang out at his friend place near the place which he thought i stayed, but when i let him know my place is nearer to the other area, he is there hanging out with his friend very soon. Again, i felt warm and happy, not at all frightened. If others, i think i might felt alarmed in a bad way.

Maybe i think too much. Or I am inducing this thought cuz i 'd been missing him since he went outstation for works. We had been chatted like nearly 1 month, but i am at the point of misery now. How come casual chat, become like daily fixation. Like gotto chat with daily, sometimes on the phone, and now missing him badly.

Near fatal incident on 13th Aug 2010 @2am

I'd a very hectic day, waken up at 6.30am and drove a car full of crews to Pekan, Pahang. An urgent order for a buka puasa dinner by our PM Najib for his fellow kampung. Anyhow, reached there before 10am despite the hectic morning jamming through Cheras & MRR2. After that, I thought i could blazed through the highway, but the rains started falling heavily along Genting-Temerloh. So my plan to reach there in 2 hrs failed miserably. Anyhow, the stretch from Kuantan to Pekan is much better than last year. The tiny 2 way road has been extended to 2 lanes per way, but its only half-way completed. Maybe by next year it will be done! One thing which pissed me off its the usage of expensive streetlight (aka PUTRAJAYA type). My colleague commented how many percentage of tourists will visit Pekan to justified for the amount spend on streetlight....well..I think we all knew very well that its not meant for tourist or promoting tourism.

Once reached site, works non stop, since not much works had been done yet by the initial crew group. I am surprised, but with aching tummy (well and mild diarhea) and hang on until ..well...until near 11pm. Luckily the pain stop right after tea time, so I only suffered for half a day. By night fall, everyone complained for tiredness, but i just need to to finish a bit more, and by 10 plus i am quite satisfied with the jobs completed, and make-sure the next day finishing touches will not jeopardise the event start-up time. With that arrangement done, I treated them to makan nearby as everyone including myself has growling tummy already. After that, we left separate ways; me to KL, them back to hotel/motel...yeah...pekan its that terrible in accommodation but well..with super expensive useless streetlight.

Along the way back, its fun! I sang happily, blazing through the silence and clear street, up until after Temerloh, rains started. tik tok tiktok....then heavier..sigh, gotto slow down, because parts fo the highway here is pitch black, no expensive nor cheap streetlight. Its still fine, up until near the sloppy-steep tight S-pin shaped road. I had already slow down to 60kmh, and i was negotiating the turn cautiously. But somehow, when i am following one right curved turn, midway, the car just turned left. But my steering its still on the right side. i am stunned for like few sec, and as the left turning almost brought the car to the edge of the hill, I just quickly turned the steering furiously to the right to counteract the effects. Whats follows is weirder, Even when i stop turning, the car then switch direction to the right now, then i just used back the tactic, keep counteracting the direction, for like 5-6 times, then the car only come to a stop. Bear in mind i already lifted my leg from both pedals, as break pad is also not doing anything to stop the car when it first go crazy. After the full stop, i realised i m still at a very dangerous road, as any upcoming car will not be able to spot me due to the near U-pin shape of most turns. I quickly press the accelerator lightly, to start moving. Truly slow, as i thought my car got problems, but as i go one further, i realised the car is functioning alright. Brake and everything working just fine. I also tried to reach both accelerator n break pad at the same time..well just to test if i could accidently step into both previously. But, no matter how i position my foot, i could not be possibly hitting them together. my foot is a size 5.5, so unless i do a horizontal press..which is unlikely, cuz my body will be turned uncomfortably to exert enough pressure to step on both. Suddenly, it just hit me that my sis birthday is just last week. And her birthday is close to ghost-month in chinese calender. I just realised that that night could overlap with ghost month already..well very likely. Thus, a slight fear seep into my heart...but i pretend nothing and keep dricing slowly, and chanting buddhism prayer. No more radio/cd/singing for me for the rest of the journey home. I am too excited with the adrenalin rushing in every corner of my vessels by then. Up until i reach Genting sempah @McD, then I am able to cool down, and drive a bit faster than the 40-60kmh...i could go 80kmh by then. Then by the time I reach MRR2, i could go 100-120 again. after I drop off some equipment at store, on the way back home, I could resume my normal speed and even started to sing again. I guess I am ok or the fear has subsided. Its such a terrible feeling being scared and alone, but when i reach home and prepare meal for Rocky, everything seems like back to normal...to my safety nest. And i am indeed felt blessful, as this is another closed call...my 2nd closed call. I guess if i have him at home at that time, i would have rush in and hug him. Just to have a strong shoulder to lean on, someone to stroke my hair and tell me everything is alright. And i would nuzzled into his warm chest feeling safer than i was then. Anyway, i felt safe now and that is all that matters. I could've called him and tell him, and i guess he would come to comfort this little kitten, but i am just too sensible to do such things. i could rush this, but i choose not to. As i keep reminding myself to go slow...and slower to enjoy the feeling..the longing...but what is i lost my life that night...then it would all be nothing. Well, maybe its fated when it really are. So, i just gotto trust if he is mine, then everything will just turn out the ways it should be...even not this life...there will be next. missing him already...what a feeling!