Going to Get Sick

Feeling weird/heaty this morning, so already eaten canned "guo lin guo" this morning. But by afternoon flu coming non-stop. So, on the way back from work, I dropped by local herb store and bought this "sheshecao" pellet and some flu medicine (super strong, drowsy type).

This is very easy to mix. If you prefer cold one, put a bit hot water to liquidify the pellet, then add water and ice. Since I already have my pineapple juice, I only have a warm version today. In my younger days, I used to just make a jug....and drink drink drink...with lotsa ice! The weird thing is, its price never increase since 15 yrs ago :) I bought this at 6.50, while some supermarket might sell 7.99, so check your price. 

It was weird that I gotten sick. I means didn't he just did? Why me? I know we had a lots in common but this is just too weird, of course he never knew cuz I could read his blog, while no one know about mine. In the herb shop, I also buy this "tan ngan lou" herb tea lah! Why? Because he mentioned he did drank that before, so well......sort of wanna know what is the taste. What did he tasted before...sound like a psyco right?

Yesterday, before I went to bed, I did online a while and ops...he is there....online but since he didn't add me chat, I didn't kacau him too. What am I thinking? yeah..I know....this person u have been daydreaming daily, and he is finally online, and u are too finally same hours...yeah at 2am....but what did u do? U just stare at his lighted nick...just like that! I seriously think i am outta my mind.....should say hi or ask him about his recovery right....yeah....no....maybe he is bz with some1....maybe he don't wanna talk to u...yeah....that too....maybe he just back from dating, and wanna chat with his date so soon already....yeah....that too....omg! These scanario playing in my mind for that 10min while I stared at his nick. Did you forgot he still recovering from his sickness? Then how can he go on date? I am like this, when I scared, I will create many reasons to give myself reason to support what I am afraid to do. Just created many made-believe scenarios to worsen my own life. Typical cancerian, or typical cancerian ram only..sigh!

I promised myself to log out after that...and I did. Curled up in my bed afterward....feeling down....wishing I could at least say hi....at least maybe ask about his health...argggggggggggggggg...i hate all these. Why I am such a scary cat? All my life, could I maybe take initiative for the 1st time, for this once! Maybe, u two not meant to be....maybe he is not destined to know who i am, what this little crab truly is.