From 30th night dinner to 3rd day, my life is still good....received confirmation call for projects and jobs, even during holiday. My bf protesting why cny also bz, but for me is good news as it did not interfere with my daily cny schedule but lifted my mood tremendeously. I wish he knew how good it really feel.
Everyone say I got good year ahead....as I have good gambling luck ...earn abit at granny place, friend and bf's relative place, but on the 4th....everything seems so bad, just the the good egg on your shelf suddenly turn bad....emitting bad odour. And this scenario really taken you by surprise...well...not the good kind.
On the 4th day, we have White Coffee cafe breakfast/lunch, then proceed to his aunt's place nearby. Then plan to eat dinner, and of course the idea of visiting our new place came up, but the mum always making serious protest, saying why go so far, just eat at one eatery nearby (which is the same place everytime plan to have dinner together , and that is so lame....ello....could you come up with somewhere more exciting....on CNY?). But of course, what do I know, the main point is not having somewhere far or near, she is protesting against goin to our place, saying go for what, etc. Well, since one the uncle insisting on visit so we all kinda agreed to have dinner nearby our place (young and old one as well..as never have it there..and is fun to try new restaurant). Then you see this rotten face again, but hell....I don't really give a damn as I don't even bother to look at her. But of course my spirit is high..and I smile throughout cny.
Good dinner, though the food could use more seasoning. High price but what the heck, is cny right. Then we proceed going to our home with 2 more cars following us closely. Well, same response as per our friend, good decor,etc. The main thing is enjoy sitting on the sofa and enjoying the av, and another uncle waiting to play mahjong. Then suddenly, the mum went crazy by screaming asking them to leave....that is late, next time you guys can come and slowly appreciate . Two families there....7 pax ..and we are enjoying their company as we are all talking in the living room happily at that time. His cousin lamented that we just got here, and the mum keep on repeating want to go home ...late and this and that. And someone ask her why so soon and I think she answered her other son (bf's step brother) about to return from jb (well, he went there since 2nd day to visit the gf) and also the husband. Duh...then ask them to come and fetch you. I means is rude to chase other ppl to fetch u home when that person is meant to stay, and this person has the whole family with him. Then I think I hear the someone complain why she need to be home as the time is only 10pm plus. And the next word....the elder son now fur and wings....can fly already, so she has to take care of the 2 men at home lah.... Later I found out that bf is not there at that moment as he already went out to get the car to show them the way out. I heard it as I am just right there at the door. maybe it's meant for me to hear , but I think she just pass the line. The aunts and uncles look at her wih wide eyes and open mouth, then turn the gase on me. I just manage to smile unwillingly, but now, I think i should shouted to her that I AM THE ONE NOT WILLING LET U SOME LIVE WITH US.....NOT YOUR POOR SANDWICHED SON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I didn't....maybe it's good to be able to keep my temper down, anyway, she look very over with her kinds of attitude.
Right on that moment, bf uncle and cousin ask me join them play mahjong at their house, since they don't get the chance to play just now. We did went, and the mum climb on the aunt's car, forcing the aun;t s children to ride on another uncle's car, so she made it clear that she is against us. But i think she is always do thing to inconvenience other ppl for her own preferences. I the way she shouted her anger on our doorstep signify this is a very calculative person. Definitely not a role model for buddhism and not teaching of buddhism as she claimed she has high knowledge on. Later i told bf about this as he did not know what happen. Her aunt's just told us later that the mum very noisy in their car on the rides back, blasting her eay drum non stop. Well, not the first time she bad mounted us..or maybe ME only...but really I don't care as long as I do not need to live with her.
When I told bf what happened, he sighed and went into this deep thinking, but quiet mode again. And asked me why must be this way...why can't we two be good to each another, saying he in between us very difficult. I asked him did he forgotten how she and the step family treated him b4? And he say what is gone cannot be calculated, should only think about future. What????? Whatever experience u have living with them, all the heartache is nothing? I tell him, it has been 8 years we did not stay with them.....since that day, the day they treated bf cruely, and will they really changed and be this angelic family member? Everything we did throughout the years, working hard, saving money and finally owning our warm nest, and now you expect me to just give in to your difficult mum until the day she died...probably another 20- 30years later??? Y would I put myself in such pitiful situation and constantly being tortured by such person. Wasn't my goal or anyone else goal in life to be happy always....longest possible? Why would my bf asking me to bear with the mum and ask me to suffer until the day she died....so that she could have nice ending in her life story.....while me miserable. NO WAY!!!!!!!!!!I cried alots .....so I got terrible eyes the next day at work. Only slept for like 2 hrs or less......so head is spinning crazy now. he asked me why, I just say, why our love story always have problem from day 1???? he say not us..its him....his life.I also criedn because at the end..he still hope to change his mum fanatic ways and thinking, and could finally all stay together with his step dad and bro.Duh..............do you not see the main reason for me to shed tears......not because of the evil woman , but you who not willing to protect me when i did the same to you every now and then , not willing to let go of the mommy' boy tittle. Maybe..this is not his life...but is my curse for ignoring my parent's advise for him.
